Ladies and GentsÂ… this is Depression 101 with Judy. Fun fun fun.

WeÂ’ll move from trivial to important, it makes more sense that way. Plus, itÂ’ll give you something to want to read later on. ThereÂ’s nothing like reading about someone elseÂ’s pain. *sigh*

First off, Dana hasnÂ’t any time for me. She always has plans with no time at all for lilÂ’ olÂ’ me. If she does have free time, sheÂ’s too tired to do anything. ItÂ’s like I went from best friend to nothing. I have a feeling itÂ’s all backlash from the musical, which was interesting. At any rate, I miss the girl terribly. She was my best friend. They say all good things must end. I just wish there was something I could do about it.

And then thereÂ’s JasonÂ… heÂ’s such a beautiful person. I care about him so deeply, yet I know itÂ’s hopeless. He is exactly like me. He falls in love easily, he relies heavily on his friendshipsÂ… heÂ’s looking for the same things I am. But it never feels right. I feel so bad that I canÂ’t love him. I just donÂ’t know what to do about that.

HereÂ’s the one I have been complaining about forever now, prom. TicketÂ’s go on sale in two weeks. I have no date, at all. IÂ’ve asked 3 people, and gotten turned down all three times. ItÂ’s really starting to get on my nerves. I am thinking about going stag. However, I think IÂ’d be really embarrassed showing up without a date. I mean, think of how pathetic I would look. IÂ’m not unattractive. Arg. I think itÂ’s just a conspiracy. So if anyone under the age of 21 (sorry Darryl) wants to drive to PA and come to my prom (itÂ’s on May 18th), youÂ’re more than welcome to. Just email me or something.

And finally, “the move.” So my mom’s depressed, and I am too… but she thinks that moving to Virginia will make everything okay. And I’m half excited about the idea because I’d like to start off anew. However, I’m going to have trouble leaving all of my friends and such. I’m being torn in half here. If I stay, I’ll regret not being able to try and get myself to not be so depressed. If I leave, I’ll regret leaving my friends behind. Such confliction!

On a final note, IÂ’d like to thank you guys for reading this. Also, if any of you have any suggestions or advice or whateverÂ… post or email me. Talk to everyone later.