I had an idea. I thought I would run it by all of you, and see what you thought. It could change things a lot. Or it could change nothing. Really, all of that would depend on the people involved and how mature they were. Yes, that's right, I'm basing the prospective success of an idea on the adult sensibilities of humans. Am I nuts? Yes. Why am I even bothering? Because I think that, even if only for a short time, while the fad lasted and people mimicked intelligent thought in an effort to fit in, it could actually work. Let me explain...

The Problem

People are pathetic. On one side of the problem we have chatter, banter, bickering, overexplanation. A constant stream of endless, hopeless, helpless, useless ideas which primarily serve to confuse. It's often said that most things can be "overtalked". If that's the case, why then do we insist on explaining ourselves so thoroughly? Could it be that we want people to understand us? What a frightening thought! So then we take the good intentions behind our will to be heard and we turn them into boring, monotonous, wearisome noise. That, in turn, leaves us jaded and apathetic. Justifications for buying an expensive pair of shoes. Excuses for divorcing a spouse when four children were left hanging in the balance. Insistence that our jobs and our beliefs and our petty little lives are more important than those of others, than the environment, than the economy, than our children, than society as a whole, or even all the omniverse and its contents. Basically, we want people to know damn well that everything we have done had a purpose, was well thought out and turned out the way we wanted it to, even if we know they're not likely to believe us anyway. We want people to understand.

On the other side of the problem, we have insecurity. Everyone has terrible thoughts going on inside their head. Some pleasant ones, too. Some from each category that most of us would rather not hear. Why is that? Because we're too smart for our own good. We know fully well, if we really consider it properly, that every human mind harbours horrible, sick thoughts that ought to be trampled out of existence, along with opinions on nearly every matter ever witnessed and every person ever encountered. We all have our secrets, lurking around inside our heads, and we all think that they're safe and sound as long as they stay there, but none of us trusts anyone else to act responsibly with regard to their own secrets. We trust no one.

Two sides of the same coin, and essentially they both amount to a lack of understanding.

My Screwed Up Idea

What if people could know? What if, on demand, they could just tap into your consciousness (I'm not going to say "log on to your brain", as I was tempted to do) and investigate your thoughts and feelings. It is possible, if we make it so. The question is, is it acceptable? Would people be able to handle it?

I'm not sure how many people write diaries anymore. Perhaps more of us should. I don't. I would like to start. I have tons and tons of things that I'd love to bitch about, but only to myself, so nobody would know that I was bitching. See, I really have no right to complain, and I do not wish to do so. Nevertheless, any healthy human brain will build up frustration at things that it considers to be wrong. That frustration should be vented. Now, what do you think would happen if we could vent to ourselves, but allow others to see the results. What if we made our diaries, our innermost thoughts and secrets, public?

Sound like a dumb idea? Probably. Sound like something that could never work? Perhaps, but if you say that, you're projecting the mental stagnation of the human race, and I'm not sure they'd be all too happy to know how little confidence you had in them. They've certainly attacked me more than once for my pessimism and distrust.

Really, at the heart of the matter is one question. Would you do it? Give me feedback, people. Email me, if you want. Use the comments page. Contact me telepathically, use smoke signals or tack threats to my apartment door, just please say something. Don't be silent about this; I'm curious. If you had the opportunity to make all of your friends, all of your family, indeed all the world, understand you, through simple communication, would you do it? Would you have the courage? The strength to communicate your darkest thoughts, your grudges, your crushes, your opinions, your secrets, your guilt and regrets?

Your love?

Just curious.